I’m gonna start this blog like I’m not gonna finish it. That way it’s here if I need it and there isn’t all that enormous pressure to keep up if I don’t. To be honest, I’ve missed blogging. I became spoiled with the ease of use with blogs and now I hardly journal at all because it seems to take so much effort. I used to journal almost daily, just a document where I could type down my thoughts and struggles and then laugh at myself years later while rereading them. Journals measure growth, or lack thereof, and maybe that’s what keeps me from journaling the most, an overwhelming sense that I will read my thoughts months or even years from now and realize that I haven’t grown at all.

Regardless, here I am, whether that is to stay or not, I don’t know.